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7 Things I Wish I Knew at the Start of My Spiritual Awakening

If I had known these seven lessons when my awakening began, it would have saved me years of pain and confusion.

Published December 29, 2025
7 Things I Wish I Knew at the Start of My Spiritual Awakening

If I had known these seven lessons when my awakening began, it would have saved me years of pain, confusion, and self-judgment.

Nobody tells you at the beginning that awakening isn't all bliss and light. It can be profoundly destabilizing. It shakes the very foundation of who you thought you were. And that's the point.

1. Destabilization Is Normal

That initial glimpse of your true nature often triggers what people call ego death. Old unconscious beliefs, survival fears, abandonment wounds, and shame rise to the surface.

It feels chaotic, but it's not a sign you're broken. It's clearing.

2. You'll Cycle Back to the Same Patterns

You might think you've dealt with a fear or core wound, only for it to resurface months or years later.

This isn't failure. It's peeling back layers until the root distortion dissolves.

3. Chaos Clears the Way

Sometimes relationships end, jobs fall apart, or your life feels like it's crumbling. It's a demolition.

The old identity has to collapse so a new foundation can be seen.

4. Not Everyone Will Come With You

Some people close to you won't resonate anymore. That's okay. Their soul is on its own path.

Others will enter your life who align with the truth you're uncovering.

5. Don't Cling to Identities or Techniques

The mind wants to camp out. To build a spiritual identity. To say this is it.

But the real North Star is simple: Know thyself. And that can't be captured in concepts or description.

6. Don't Resist Discomfort

Allowing uncomfortable emotions or sensations to play out in awareness is what transmutes them.

Your true nature is like a light that dissolves distortion when you stop running from it.

7. It's All Play

Even in the turbulence, awakening is the soul's playground.

Joy, lightness, and magic reveal themselves as much as the pain. Remember: it's a play of consciousness.


If you're going through awakening and feel like you're looping in fears or doubts, you're not doing it wrong. You're not broken. You're transforming.

For understanding why this process feels so intense, read Why Awakening Can Feel Like a Trap.

For clearing the patterns that keep cycling, see The Golden Thread Technique.

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